Wednesday, November 19, 2008
THE MOOD IS GONE. once the clown of, the one who help in decreasing the global warming effects by giving those 'cold' statements, where is it?
gone?is it becuz i've done smth so wrong!? i dont know. cuz i did nth. nth at all!! so i dunn understand,
WHY is all this damn things happening?
seriously~ haven i done enough over all these years? all those things that i did? those sacrifices of my time, studies, work and the sleepless nights..? and those tears..? what are they?
what goes around, comes around. i admit that im wrong
once before and regretted it since then. but. . what i got back for retribution is nt just once. its many folds of that.
WHY cant i live the same life as the others, happy-ing all the time, even on the very very rocky road of life, it is as if there is nth to worry about.
is it my stupidity or my idiot kind of thinking. making myself live like a piece rock, doing nth meaningful and to wait for the weather to erode me completely as time passes.
everything is sprinting through my mind. i've gt so much things that i wanted to tell
her. but, i dunn have the chance to.
drowning all my sorrows with those alcohols, flying myself into the 'air' with the HIGH-ness of d***s and kicking them away with the 'kick' of cigarettes.
in the end, the sorrows that are drowned, floated back up, i fell frm the air, back onto them and those i kicked away, bounced back like squash. then once again. . IM BACK TO THE SQUARE ONE. no one cann stop mi, but . . .
day after day, year after year, nth changes, its still there, the waiting and hoping remains.
so everyone out there, cherish when it is there and not regretting it after its gone. its really miserable life.
bolang, thx for that 40 mins of silence at the void deck. i think i will be fine, i too hope that the thought of quitting sch will go away.Labels: all.i.cann.think.about.now.is.you
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